And suddenly this morning hailed

Raining

That there are only 2 more working days till Estern- I know it
That there are only 2 nights left till HE is back- I know it
That the weather in Dublin changes every 5 minutes- I know it…..But who would have thought today that it would be sunny in Dublin and a minute later hailing too? It would have been wonderfull if I hadnt been out on the street without umbrella (hail can hurt….)

And HE will be back for Easter and I want to do something special, so I thought, why not a romantic dinner? Because I believe that you cook for people you love, someone you want to love, or for that person you don’t know yet if you will love. But I am not a good cook, actually I am quite bad, and what is worse…. I don’t like it! but I love eating…. complicated. And HE knows all this, so the other day went to a bookshop looking for an English Style Cookbook (for Spanish recipes I can always call my mum) and, I have to confess that I panicked in the shop!! So many options and no idea which one was good (plus they are quite expensive)  and I couldn’t choose what to buy:

  • Recipes for beginners ???? Something like Sandwich + Coke??
  • 1000 easy recipes … Easy??? Really? Maybe once you find the 100 ingredients that you will need..
  • 1000 recipes when it’s just you (how cruel!!)
  • Grandmother’s recipes… I can’t associate that with “romantic and sexy dinner”
  • And then the other section, the ones “signed” by Tv or Movie stars …. dont know…

So I left without any book. I did some research in cookbooks and… I decided to use internet instead. Let’s see how It goes. I guess I am just worry that everything could be a disaster!! You can plan it all:

  • After work directly home
  • Put the ingredients in the oven like in the recipe… easy.
  • Run to the shower to have the whole session: scrub, special gel, mask for your face and your hair, body milk, make up, your hair…you look great! Everything will be perfect 🙂
  • Open the oven to check on the fish… it looks a bit dried so you add some wine…. and suddenly the oven seems on fire, all the smoke in the apartment and you look like a mess….

Just in case I have bought a lot of wine 😉

The trick is to keep breathing!

Just Keep Breathing

What a pain, literally!!! Still no job for me in London!!! so I keep on looking, but when you are a bit down coz you can’t find anything, your optimism and your energy are very very low … How come in such a big city there isn’t a job for me?  Ohhh Patience, something will come up (that’s what i say to myself and so do my friends)

At least in the meantime I have been on holidays!! Great and very happy time in the sun! Enjoying seven days in a row of sun, sleep, beach, cocktails and HIM (that was the best part!!) The place we went on holiday seemed to have another day to day speed, local people didn’t look stress or seem to be in a hurry, everyone looked happy and relaxed! I don’t like how my work stresses me, how missing HIM makes me sad or not finding a new job can make me feel that I am not good enough. Whatever happens, the trick is to keep breathing 🙂 Tomorrow things will be better!!!

OK, now back to “Look for a new job” for me.

The airport, The plane and the Human Behaviour

It is a fact that flying is not my favourite thing  … I don’t know why I don’t like it, It could be …maybe… because I am afraid of heights???? But I do it, I actually fly quite a lot! First of all because I live in an island (Ireland) so to go anywhere for holidays, visit family/friends, some job interviews over in London (the last one is quite rare….) I need to take a plane. But the most important reason why I am flying a lot lately is to go over to England to visit HIM (and there is no way my fear to fly will stop me!!)

Airports, normally I am on my own so I have time to walk around, see all the shops (and end up buying something even when I promised myself that I would never do it again!!) and sit around and stare at people. I have this useless talent to be able to stare at people for hours trying to figure them out. OK, I will explain what kind of “airport” person I am: trainers (even if they don’t match my clothes) comfortable clothes, a ponytail, jumpers (as I am always freezing on the planes) my books and chocolate. So I normally admire girls that prepare themselves to take a plane (like high heals, make up, sandals, sexy clothes….) because I can’t do that.

And after an hour flight, you land feeling all bloated, your hair is a mess and you struggle to collect all your little things on the plane (always a waste of space in your bag as you know that in a 50 minutes flight you won’t be able to read the book, the magazines, listen to music and do some crosswords) but you would take them with you anyway. And then you think: I haven’t seen HIM for 2 weeks!! So you run to the nearest toilet, and try to make sure you look your best!! I am not a make up person, but in those moments I regret it!! so you just refresh your face and go to meet HIM!

And then, when you see HIM, you drop all your stuff and run to kiss HIM!! A long perfect kiss, like in the movies …. But let’s be realistic: if you ever drop your bags two things could happen: someone steals them from you, or the security staff at the airport will make them explode (how many times can they say: please don’t leave your luggage unattended!!!??

First Response: No!

Exactly, the company won’t make you an offer. Ok, you probably didn’t even want the job but….aaggrrr it’s just so unfair.

If you think about it, for a job interview you prepare yourself: not only you learn all the answers you can find for possible questions, also questions to ask to the guy who is interviewing you,  as well as what to wear, how to wear it …

And then, out of the blue, you say IT, THAT! the question that shows you aren’t really ready for the position or really interested on it. Like that, unexpectedly or without any warning, you just say what you wanted to keep to yourself. And with that, all your chances of getting the job went down the toilet.

But how did that happen?? You thought you had it all prepared, .. well, sometimes it is just impossible to keep yourself under control.

There will be more interviews, more rejections, …. Let’s face it, it’s just a pain!!  But at least it’s already Spring in Ireland 🙂

And like they say:

  • What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger
  • Or what my friend would say: Build a bridge baby, push out the hate – pull in the LOVE!
  • Another friend also told me: You know what Irish say: If you throw enough shit against the wall something’s got to stick.

And today is his Birthday! So Happy Birthday!! I wish I was there with you now xx

Hello World, or should I say Hello Cyber World?

I can’t believe I am going to do this but here I am. I have decided to create my own blog, to tell how I see the world around me. I need to say that I am a Spanish girl who lives in Dublin, and that I am planning on moving to London.

So I am going through all the looking for jobs, which means sending hundreds of Cvs and getting just a few replies. And the interviews, first with the recruitment agencies and later, if you are lucky, with the actual company you are applying for.

And not only that, but HIM has already got a new job and has left Dublin. And let me tell you how difficult is to sleep on your own when you are used to … not to.

I have to say that It is hard and difficult to look for a new job when we are in the middle of an global financial crisis …. I need a new job soon!!!